Apparently...

I didn't post a picture of the family on Valentine's Day. Silly me.

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Ahhh...

Today is Matthew's first day back to work. (Well, not really, but this is the first day of his new full time job). Up until today, he'd only worked a couple days since Sophie was born. Nice to have around to help, not so nice on our savings account.
The point basically is that I'm terrified! Matthew will be gone ten hour days five days a week. That's including the one hour each way that he'll have to drive. So I'm worried about him making that commute as well.
I'm hoping we'll be able to get on more of a schedule and that things will even out soon enough. I sure hope so! I'm exhausted enough.

Losing it a little

I could totally just kick myself right now.

During my pregnancy, I gained about 12 pounds. Which was really awesome. And I had basically eaten whatever I wanted (within reason) while pregnant. So the lack of a major weight gain was great.
What was even better, was that in the first two weeks following Sophie's birth- I lost thirty pounds!! You hear that!! Thirty pounds!!! And I'll admit it, the first and second week I barely ate. I was too busy with Sophie, and when I wasn't with her, I was asleep. I managed on a small meal each day, with a ton of water. And I felt like I didn't need anymore than that.
In the third week, something changed. I was hungry. ALL.THE.TIME. And by all.the.time. I mean, I would finish eating something, and immediately get up and grab something else.
Even worse, by the fifth week, I was no longer grabbing the healthy options, but the junk that we had laying around.
So for the past week, I've been eating crap along with a good lunch and dinner (not always lunch though). Some of this I attribute to being up all night with Sophie. I don't have the option to get much else done, besides laying with her on the couch. And I'll probably snack if the snack doesn't involve needing both hands. Because Sophie will be in one arm.
And from eating very poorly this past week, I can already tell that I've picked back up a few pounds. I know I need to start eating better again, but ugh!! That is just too hard. And I'm kicking myself for even allowing myself to eat the crap that I have been.

Maybe writing it down will help me in the long run. But I am going to eat better!!! I was healthy for a few weeks, and I can do it again :)

Not Me! Monday...First edition

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Okay, to start off- I am NOT writing this on Tuesday. It's called Not Me! Monday, not Tuesday.

I didn't get to write this sooner, because Monday was NOT an awful day (it really was). And the mastitis and thrush, that I do NOT have, did NOT keep me from the computer.

Earlier in the week, I did NOT put Sophie's diaper on backwards at a 4AM diaper change. I did Not realize it an hour later, because, well, I wouldn't do such a thing.

I also did NOT scramble to make my husband a homemade valentine's card from Sophie, as he was on his way home from work. I did NOT just finish it as I heard the front door open.

Speaking of Valentine's Day. Matthew and I did NOT venture out to dinner, with Sophie in tow. We all know how crowded it is. And taking a newborn to dinner is never all that fun. Thankfully, we did NOT go to Denny's. And Sophie was NOT good the whole time :)

So even though I'm NOT late in doing this, head over to MckMama's anyway and post what you did NOT do this week :)

Ouch!

Even before I knew I was pregnant, I wanted to breastfeed. I knew that unless I absolutely had to, Sophia would not receive a bottle.
So of course, the following day after Sophia's birth- The nurse recommended that I supplement, because Sophia still had not peed. I think Sophie took maybe 2-3 bottles in the hospital. And then while at home, she took maybe 4 spaced out over a few weeks. And those bottles were just because I needed that extra sleep. And Matthew was willing. Bad me, I know.
But, we have been bottle free for like 3 weeks now. We do have bottles/formula here, just in case of an emergency. But I have no plans on her getting it otherwise.

However, the downside of breast feeding, at least for me, is that Monday started my second bout of mastitis. Thankfully the first time I had it, it wasn't bad. Just a really sore painful breast. I didn't get any of the other symptoms that typically come with it. So I could handle it. And in a few days, with antibiotics, I was feeling better.

This time... I feel like I am going to die! I have the chills, fever, every thing you can possible imagine to make how I feel even worse. I've already started antibiotics. But ouch!

And... To top it off, I have thrush on both nipples, too! Lucky me.

I wouldn't give up breastfeeding for these things, but I wouldn't mind not getting things that cause me pain, especially since I'm doing something so good! What a trade off...

Really?

I looked at the ticker on my myspace today and realized that Sophie is One month and four days old... Seriously? Where did the last five weeks go?
I can already see such a change in her. Getting longer, her face thinning out some, little rolls forming on her thighs... I am terrified of her growing up. Why can't she stay my little baby forever?

I'm so lucky to have such a good baby. She has this laid back personality, and only cries for a minute if I'm late on getting her to the boob. And her sleeping has finally started to shift. Last night she slept from 12-6, waking 2-3 times for food/diaper change, then back to sleep. I hope this continues! Too bad my schedule is all messed up, and I can't sleep at night now!

Here is Sophia at one month old... Posing on the lovebug ladybug. We plan to take her picture each month with the bug, just so we can see how much she is growing from month to month.

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How cute is that? Seriously. I love her so much!

Meeup Sling Giveaway!

I came across a blog that is having a sling giveaway!

http://4littlemen.blogspot.com/2009/02/meeup-giveaway.html

You can enter up to two times, or visit http://www.meeupcarriers.blogspot.com/ to purchase your own carrier!

Just a test...

Just a test, seeing if this is easy enough for me to handle.
More to come at a later date :)