One year ago...

One year ago.... I was just out of surgery, and being moved to a room. I had a football sized cyst removed from my right fallopian tube.
We had been trying to have a baby for months, and months, and months... It wasn't happening. I finally went to see my OB/GYN, and after a lot of testing, the cyst was seen on a sonogram. And it was getting bigger.
As I laid in the hospital bed, My doctor talked to me about the surgery. She had never seen a cyst that size in that location. However, she was sure that the cyst was not the cause of our infertility. Something else was going on. And that scared me. I cried. I cried because I hurt, and I cried because I thought our chance at a baby was gone.
Hours after the surgery, I got my period. Which I had only been getting sporadically for the past few months. The doctors assumed it was just post surgery bleeding. But I knew different.
A few weeks later, I thought I ovulated. The doctor strongly disagreed. But I asked for the blood work anyway. It turns out I did! All on my own. Without the intervention of drugs, that the doctor believed I needed.

Today, I have a beautiful, three months old tomorrow, baby girl. It turns out, not only did I ovulate, but I was pregnant, before there was even another cycle. I am so happy, and Sophia fills my heart completely. I am complete, and it's wonderful.

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Hot, hot, hot!

Looking at the forecast for today makes me want to put the AC in!! It's supposed to get up into the 70's!! It's been unbearably hot in this house for the past couple weeks, but last night and today have been the worst. Even Sophie is down to her diaper!

We are looking forward to getting out to the park today though :)

Apparently...

I didn't post a picture of the family on Valentine's Day. Silly me.

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Ahhh...

Today is Matthew's first day back to work. (Well, not really, but this is the first day of his new full time job). Up until today, he'd only worked a couple days since Sophie was born. Nice to have around to help, not so nice on our savings account.
The point basically is that I'm terrified! Matthew will be gone ten hour days five days a week. That's including the one hour each way that he'll have to drive. So I'm worried about him making that commute as well.
I'm hoping we'll be able to get on more of a schedule and that things will even out soon enough. I sure hope so! I'm exhausted enough.

Losing it a little

I could totally just kick myself right now.

During my pregnancy, I gained about 12 pounds. Which was really awesome. And I had basically eaten whatever I wanted (within reason) while pregnant. So the lack of a major weight gain was great.
What was even better, was that in the first two weeks following Sophie's birth- I lost thirty pounds!! You hear that!! Thirty pounds!!! And I'll admit it, the first and second week I barely ate. I was too busy with Sophie, and when I wasn't with her, I was asleep. I managed on a small meal each day, with a ton of water. And I felt like I didn't need anymore than that.
In the third week, something changed. I was hungry. ALL.THE.TIME. And by all.the.time. I mean, I would finish eating something, and immediately get up and grab something else.
Even worse, by the fifth week, I was no longer grabbing the healthy options, but the junk that we had laying around.
So for the past week, I've been eating crap along with a good lunch and dinner (not always lunch though). Some of this I attribute to being up all night with Sophie. I don't have the option to get much else done, besides laying with her on the couch. And I'll probably snack if the snack doesn't involve needing both hands. Because Sophie will be in one arm.
And from eating very poorly this past week, I can already tell that I've picked back up a few pounds. I know I need to start eating better again, but ugh!! That is just too hard. And I'm kicking myself for even allowing myself to eat the crap that I have been.

Maybe writing it down will help me in the long run. But I am going to eat better!!! I was healthy for a few weeks, and I can do it again :)

Not Me! Monday...First edition

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Okay, to start off- I am NOT writing this on Tuesday. It's called Not Me! Monday, not Tuesday.

I didn't get to write this sooner, because Monday was NOT an awful day (it really was). And the mastitis and thrush, that I do NOT have, did NOT keep me from the computer.

Earlier in the week, I did NOT put Sophie's diaper on backwards at a 4AM diaper change. I did Not realize it an hour later, because, well, I wouldn't do such a thing.

I also did NOT scramble to make my husband a homemade valentine's card from Sophie, as he was on his way home from work. I did NOT just finish it as I heard the front door open.

Speaking of Valentine's Day. Matthew and I did NOT venture out to dinner, with Sophie in tow. We all know how crowded it is. And taking a newborn to dinner is never all that fun. Thankfully, we did NOT go to Denny's. And Sophie was NOT good the whole time :)

So even though I'm NOT late in doing this, head over to MckMama's anyway and post what you did NOT do this week :)